oh my ;laksjd;laskj!

(Um that little spaz in the title is NOT supposed to be a curse word... haha)

UMM WE SAW THE AMAZING SPIDERMAN 2 AND LET ME TELL YOU

-NEW OBSESSION WITH SPIDERMAN. BY FAR MY FAVORITE SUPER HERO MOVIE EVER

- I'VE NEVER CRIED TO SO HARD IN A MOVIE. EVER. NOT EVEN CLOSE. I CRY IN LOTS OF MOVIES AND THAT'S NORMAL, AND I EVEN HAVE TO HOLD IT IN A LITTLE MORE THAN OTHER TIMES, BUT NOT THIS MOVIE. I WAS HOLDING IT IN (BECAUSE WHO WANTS TO SOB AT A MOVIE THEATER IN THE MIDDLE OF THE MOVIE. KIND OF EMBARRASSING AND ANNOYING FOR EVERYONE.) AND THEN IT ENDED AND I TURNED TO CHANCE TO TELL HIM HOW MUCH I LOVED IT AND I TOTALLY LOST IT. NOT KIDDING, I WAS HYSTERICAL. LIKE, I HAVE RARELY CRIED THAT HARD EVER IN MY LIFE ABOUT LEGITIMATE SAD THINGS.


It was crazy and I had no idea what was going on. But then I realized *** SPOILER *** Gwen Stacy (Emma Stone) and Peter Parker (Andrew Garfield) has the most amazing love and chemistry on screen (and in real life!) and I seriously fell in love with their love. (Which is kinda funny because with the previous Spiderman movies there was not Gwen, just Mary Jane, and then the new Spiderman came out and I was like 'who is the Gwen chick? Where's MJ!?' Now I am opposite... GWEN FOREVER). And then what happens? I wasn't prepared because I didn't read the comics or anything. Gwen Stacy dies. Not only does she die, but she dies because of a situation she was put in by Spiderman (though she made it clear it was her choice). But that was his greatest fear, was putting her in danger. But if Spiderman's web had reached her 1 second earlier, she probably would have lived. So she dies, they have a funeral, and they show Peter at her grave throughout the whole year, and he takes a break from spiderman, then he talks to his aunt and his aunt talks about moving on, then a bad guy comes and a little kid dresses up as spiderman and goes out to face the bad guy (more tears) and Spiderman comes back. I know that was a ramble but here is the deal:

-I'm an empathizer. You know that quote we hear a lot in church "bare one another's burdens". I do that. When I see, hear, or talk to someone about something they are struggling with I can't help but put myself in that situation (not that I could ever do it completely accurately). And as stupid as it sounds, that's exactly what I did when I was watching this Spiderman. As soon as Gwen died, I put myself in Spiderman's situation (not with gwen obviously... but with Chance.. ) I can't. I really don't know how I would live without him. Even thinking about losing him, my eyes fill with water. And second.. and the thing that is the real kicker, Spiderman "moves on".... I can understand moving on if like.. he didn't love her anymore, or if she didn't love him, but she died. I'm sure they would have been together forever if she didn't die. I literally cannot fathom moving on in a situation like that. It makes me sad to think about moving on too... And I know people do it all the time... but I just... yeah, I don't like thinking about it.

-That little kid at the end. The kid who had hope, and bravery. I'm a sucker for children. It touched my heart! And since I was already on the edge of tears, that just kicked over the bucket haha.

I know it's totally silly, but that's what happened. And I cried for like an hour after the movie and I couldn't even talk about it without breaking down. Cute Chance just held and comforted me:)

So yeah. Go see The Amazing Spiderman 2.

who wants to pay my bail?...

Ya gotta do whatcha gotta do... right?

HAHA J-K guys. That is long, hard earned cash right there. I've been saving for months and months.

Stay tuned to see what I've been saving for... 

goulish gorp, witches brew, bat bait, oh my!

Grandma's halloween dinner has got to be my favorite. (Then again, pretty much anything with any holiday is my favorite.) But seriously. The menu where you order and don't know what you'll get? Such a classic. And there may not have been a spook ally set up in the garage this year... But grandma did not disappoint.

A scary story....

and if you look closely...

A GHOST IN THE WINDOW!!!!

Hahahaha best part of the whole night. Maybe you had to be there. But trust me when I say my Grandma just straight up rocks. I love how festive she is. It's my favorite.

another bunch of randoms...

Chance's mom and sister's birthday was the other day, and we decided to send them a little birthday song video! They loved it... and I love singing with him. And it took about 15 takes to get it right.

Sweater weather is coming and I couldn't be more excited or ready. I just spent 50$ at Saver's half off sale and got about 8 sweaters. I'm really getting a handle on this thrift shopping.

On my way to hear Annie speak in sacrament meeting...and my car overheats. I mean really, there's hardly anything I'd rather be doing than waiting for my car to cool down... but really?? Well.. it's happened enough times that I know what to do by myself at this point. 

But then later Austin took me on a bike ride... 

Bag the car... I'm getting a bike.

welp. that wasn't supposed to happen.

How today was supposed to go:

// Wake up and go to the temple to do baptisms.

//  Tailgate with the family before the BYU game  to visit and eat some yummy food!

// Head out to Chasing Chance's show at the Radioactive Fest and set up outside.

// Take some sweet pictures for the band.

// Meet Dan Reynolds of Imagine Dragons.

How today actually went:

// Woke up and laid in moms bed and talked all morning.

// Still went to the temple, but didn't have time to do baptisms so I just sat in the chapel and read my
   scriptures for a bit.

// Drove out to go tailgating and hit awful game-day traffic so we ended up driving around for a while trying to find some place to park because we weren't going to stay for the game. We ended up parking pretty far away and walked a ways ONLY to have it start POURING rain right as we found the family. I mean I don't even think I said hi to anyone. Everyone was scrambling trying to put the food away and go for cover. Too bad Chance and I had no cover since our car was parked half a mile away! So I hurry and stuck my camera bag into my aunts car for safe keeping, and Chance and I had no choice but to walk back to his car in this mini hurricane. Soaked to the bone. So hungry. And maybe a little scared even?... Roads were flooded, trees were falling down. Never seen rain like that in Utah! We made it back to Chance's apartment safely... but now...hair ruined, makeup gone, and I had NO extra clothes... I was forced to wear Chance's sweats and a T-shirt. 

// We weren't sure if the show was going to be cancelled since it was supposed to be outside. So we went out to where it was supposed to be to see what was going on. The show was still on but they were forced to play inside on a puny stage, got too short of a sound check, started late, and had a few technical difficulties.

// Since I put my camera bag in my aunts car, I no longer had it to take pictures. And my phone died so I took iphone pictures with Nick's phone. Plus terrible lighting.

// Didn't meet Dan Reynolds...

Lesson learned from today? Some of the best days are the ones in which, not necessarily everything goes wrong, but when all these things happen that you didn't plan for! I LOVED laying in bed with my mom just talking. I LOVED just sitting and reading my scriptures in the temple. I felt the spirit of love from my Heavenly Father SO strongly and couldn't help but smile the whole time I was there. The rain was definitely NOT planned for... but getting stuck in that kind of rain was actually fun. Chance and I just walked and ran through it hand in hand and just laughed the whole time. It was like a "I can't believe this is really happening right now" kind of laugh. That was some super soaking rain, and not everyone can say they've been a part of rain like that! It was fun!

Luckily the show still happened, and even though it wasn't ideal, they still got to play, and the people still loved it! And I got good enough pictures. I'm just glad my nice camera didn't get ruined! We didn't meet Dan Reynolds.. BUT I got to witness his sound check so it was basically like a private concert right?.... Haha.

Regardless of how today went, it is one I will ALWAYS remember. And I live for these kinds of days.

on last night/this morning

Okay Aubrey... When was the last time pulling an all nighter was a good idea... Oh yeah, NEVER. I might never learn...
BUT leaving my house at 4:30 am to drive to downtown Salt Lake to support my best in Chasing Chance on channel 2 morning news? WAY worth it.

he's adorable even at 5 in the morning.

me not so much. haha.

oh yeah, I had a "Mike Wazowski" moment today. Remember in Monsters Inc. when Mike is SO excited to be on the commercial for Monsters Incorporated? And then his face TOTALLY gets blocked by the logo. But he is SO excited about it. Haha, yeah that's how I feel about this. That's my face on that TV. And even though it's a very small part of my face and you can't even tell it's me.... I feel pretty cool.

Nevertheless.... after no sleep, and working all day, I'm definitely tired. Yeah, mmhmm. Definitely. SO excuse me while I go to bed at 8:30 this fine evening.

easter

He lives! He lives today and everyday! He lives and He loves me! "Oh what joy this sentence gives! I know that my Redeemer lives!"



i am so thankful to know this!
and to have a holiday centered around it.
i truly am thankful for my Savior.
He is my brother, and best friend.
Words cannot express my love and gratitude for Him.





And of course there is the silly side of easter!
bunnies, eggs, candy.
ya know.

swedish bread from mom! and cake in a jar!

the coveted golden egg!

grandmas homemade chocolate eggs.
only the best.

easter 1997                                                                                      easter 2013

and some things just never change.

Happy Easter!!

i'm way mormon.

i forgot to mention that last week at macy's farewell talk
the speaker before her said something i thought was funny,
but i loved it too.
she explained how a friend had asked her if she was mormon
and she said yes.
and then her friend said,
but are you mormon or are you way mormon?
and she thought about it for a second and said
i'm way mormon.

haha i love that!
and ya know what? i agree.
i'm way mormon.
i know who i am, where i came from, and where im going.
i have standards that i try my best not to shake from.
i'm not afraid to say what i believe and stand up for it.
i'm way mormon!
and i love it.

i went to the young women's general conference with my mom
tonight.
A) i just love being with my mom
B) i love the spirit that conference brings!

as soon as we began the opening song
my eyes got all watery and i could barely sing.
i was overwhelmed with the spirit.
hearing all these young women singing together,
unified in what we believe.
WOW!
seriously, it took my breath away!
throughout the talks i felt the spirit strongly.
the spirit of improvement,
and wanting to be better.
tears everywhere.
a greater appreciation for the temple,
a stronger testimony.

i'm not perfect.
no where near it.
but i am happy.
and i know it is because of this gospel,
because of the gospel of Jesus Christ, my Savior, who died for me.
who knows my name.
who is in EVERY detail of my life,
and i am so grateful that i can see it.

i'm WAY mormon.
i know it
i live it
i love it.

PS

i also went shopping with my mom

(savers. i love a good deal)

and i also bought a pair of high heels....

if you know me,

you know i don't wear heels.

they arent comfortable and i never find any i like anyways.

but for some reason... i had to have them.

who am i!?

weekend

goin home for easter weekend!
i'm pretty excited.
i love being with my family!

i told mckay i was coming home,
and he always gives great responses:

what's a movie night without popcorn AND kool aid?

haha...

even though maybe i didn't even stay awake for 1 minute of the movie..

and mckay stayed awake for the whole movie.

i'm so proud of him!

i think i'll go to st george for the day

it was so warm here for spring break
and in my head i was having a conversation with myself
about how spring is actually coming on time this year!

then.
it snowed.
typical.

but hope was on the horizon because mckay had a tennis tournament
in st george!
and it's always warm there,
right?....

so at 9 pm on friday i left with emmie to st george,
because her brother's on the team too.
(ROAD TRIP! haha)
got in at 12:30 in the morning.
went to bed.
got up at 6:30...
early. but it's fine.
go to the tennis tournament.
and ya know what?
if i didn't love my brother so much
i would have hated it.
it was SO COLD.
freezing!!!
but snuggling with my little bro
made it worth it :)

ha for real i love him so much.

coolest kid i know.

i'll never get over it.

and every time i think about how he is going on his mission this summer

i tear up.

and ya know what?

this boy went 5-0 at his tournament. what a champ.

also coming down with emmie

was my favorite.

i love how long we have been best friends

(our whole life)

and how weird we are.

makes me happy:)

we left for home after mckay's second match.

first stopping for lunch at costa vida

where my brothers didn't believe i could eat a whole salad.

which i did...

so i went to st george

and back,

in less than 24 hours.

that's kind of a lot of driving.

but i was with people i love and adore the whole time!

so it was perfect.

:)

LITTLE THINGS!

everything
is better
either
really
BIG....
or really....

little

BABY TURTLES!!!

in our apartment!!!

(mel bought them from a guy by walmart)

we love them.

they are so cute..

delta

some of my friends from my apartment complex
are from a little town called delta.
never heard of it?
neither had i.
they wanted to have a bunch of people
come down for a bon fire on saturday night
and then for a super bowl party on sunday.
sounded fun
so i tagged along!

delta.

it's a VERY small town
just passed Nephi.
very small in an adorable kind of way.

pre super bowl bon fire

the bon fire.

on the ice.

my friends are country boys.

so they like this kind of stuff.

and we took their guns out to the frozen lake.

umm...

i really like shooting guns.

(in a dress. hahaha)

oh that delta town is charming.

i'd definitely go back:)

winnnerrrr

let the record show:

that i beat chance at bowling.
HA HA HA!
yesssssss!

to be a kid again

today i pulled out my journal
from when i was little.

oh boy was that an adventure!
reading that baby was filled with
a LOT of laughing
and a LOT of
"did i really say that?!"

and i can't remember if i mentioned this before,
but in short,
when we were little
me, leslie, emmie, and breann
had this dog club.
we made rules and everything.
breann didn't have a dog at the time
so we made her stick her face in the snow
to be a part of it.
i know,
hazing at it's finest.

then recently at the beginning of the semester
i got a text from bre
saying that her and leslie had come up with idea
to have the spirit dog club (yes we are all in college)
because all of our dogs were getting old.
and every time some ones dog passed away
we would go to the park and plant a flower for the dog
and then for comic relief
everyone who still had a dog living
had to stick their face in mud.
HA!
and as you know
my dog has passed away,
so we will do that soon.
and on the bright side
i will never have to stick my face in mud!

ANYWAYS
i couldn't even believe it
when i saw in my journal
that i had DOCUMENTED the original dog club!

hahaha!

so there it is!

PROOF.

i'm so glad i kept a journal

as a kid.

reminds me of how simple life was.

and how weird i was!

such long days.

i believe i have mentioned that my days
are pretty long this semester.

in detail,
that means:
on mondays i wake up at 7 to get ready.
board the shuttle at 7:45.
arrive on campus to start work at 8.
work until 12.
eat lunch.
monday's i am fortunate enough to have break
between work and class at 3.
then class at 3.
home at 5.
long day.

tuesdays and thursdays
i wake up at 6. six o'clock in the A.M.....
get ready. board the shuttle and 6:45.
arrive on campus to start work at 7.
work until 1.
that means no time to eat lunch :(
class from 1-2:15
and a class after that from 2:30 to 3:45.
then i have to go back to work
for a little bit
to finish what i couldn't finish before.
then i eat dinner on campus with my handy dandy
employee card.
so i end up getting home at 5.
long days.

wednesday and friday
i get to sleep in!!!.....
till 8!
i don't even remember a single time in my life
where i actually considered 8 o'clock sleeping in.
that's so sad.
i get ready.
my awesome friend mckenna picks me up
at about 8:30
and we travel to orem elementary school
to teach in the preschool until 12:30. (it's one of my classes. best thing ever. kinderbeets all over again)
then mckenna so kindly takes me back to UVU
to start work.
first i eat.
work from 1-5.
long days.

and after everyday
i've got homework
and studying to come home to!
and let's be real
i have to fit the bachelor in there some where!!!
haha...

those are long long days to me!
not exactly what i'm used to,
for my college life anyways.


naturally,
i'm tired all the time.
because who has time to REALLY get 8 hours of sleep at night
when you live with all your friends?
not that easy to go to bed early. (not to mention the walls are so thin you wouldn't be able to go to bed unless every single roommate was asleep already....)


so when annie posted this picture on my facebook,
i got a REAL kick out of it:

.....

because it just so happens that this picture below was taken

only a few moments before annie posted the picture above to my facebook.

so when annie posted the other pic

i laughed at myself.

and said

LITERALLY.

THAT'S HOW IT IS.

hahaha...

THESE DAYS ARE LONG!

shafted

a family dinner had been planned for this fine sunday

in honor of my mother 

and my brother jace's birthdays!

little did i (and mckay) know that we weren't exactly going to be

a part of the family dinner............

mom says "2 youngest at the bar"

...................

and though i'm 19 and mckay is 17,

that means us...

 but it's fine.

because we would rather just talk to each other anyways!

WAY better than being included with the rest of the family......

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.....

holiday

i have this calendar.

and it has the best holidays.

so...

happy festival of sleep day!

we hope you enjoyed
your sleep
whether you had enough
or not!
do yourself a favor
and go take a nap to celebrate!

les mis

les miserables.
wow.
what an amazing story.
what amazing music.

i'm grateful for things like les mis
that make me feel.

thank you annie
for taking me.

PS
it's kind of funny
when you go to one theater
find out the time is sold out,
go to a different theater,
find out that's sold out too,
then go back to the first theater you went to
and finally get tickets to the movie.
it may be 9:00 at night now
and the movie is 3 hours long.
but that doesn't matter.

hahaha.
oh and playing guitar hero in the down time.
also fun.

we even drew in a crowd.

rock on.

WWD&MD

"what would donny and marie do?"

concert with the fam.

ohhh they are just classic!

CHEER

it's time!

merry christmas from santa's favorite reindeer!!!

PS

i spy....

hahahaha

oh

and thanks chance

for fixing our tree

and fixing our lights

by replacing the fuse with tin foil.