take hope.

here is a story for you,
that i am anxious to tell.
it's about some things that happened
that made this day turn out well.

there's this piece of paper on our fridge,
that says "take what you need",

and the things that are listed 

are what everyone should have, indeed.

when i woke up this morning

and got ready for school

i remembered i had a writers log due...

i am such a fool!

how could i forget!

ugh..this is a decent part of my grade!

then i sat there on the floor

and saw my A- begin to fade...

"maybe i can do my homework,

and turn it in to her later class!"

i thought that this might really work,

and my stress began to pass.

when i got ready to walk out the door

i saw that paper hanging there.

i read through the list of words

and took a deep breath of air.

"i could really use some hope today"

so i tore the strip right off.

whether it works or not, i think,

that it's worth a shot.

so i sit down in my class

waiting for my teacher to arrive

and i pull out that piece of paper that says hope

and think maybe i will survive.

before the teacher even comes in

i hear a fellow student say

"our portfolios are due next week

and our writers logs are due thursday."

due thurdsay? i thought,

not due today?

the writers logs are due thursday!

they aren't due today!!!

once again i look at that piece of paper

that just says a simple word

i smile and think to myself

"carrying a piece of paper couldn't do this,

that would be absurd!"

after class i left with a smile

that i kept inside my heart

i couldn't believe my log wasn't due today,

now this was a good start.

when waiting for my next class

i had nothing to do,

so i think about some stuff that has happened

over the last week or two.

i just thought about stuff

like some of my insecurities.

how i'm a little afraid of the future

and what it will bring to me.

so i sit and i think and i think and i sit

and one word comes to mind.

this one simple word, i think,

will make everything just fine.

hope is what i need.

it will make everything right.

hope is what i need

to take away the fright.

after my class

i had yet another to come,

roommate annie usually gives me 

a ride to that one.

she texts me and says

"aubs, i'm running late!

can you get another ride?

work is going at a slow rate!"

"oh thats ok!" i say

"i can miss it tonight."

"i'm so sorry aubs!" she says

i say "no really, it's alright!"

the only reason i was worried

was because we were having a review.

a review for the final test

which will be the last class, then im through!

i could go to the saturday class,

but it's so early in the morn

i would rather not go to that one

and so now i am torn.

i try to think of what i can do,

and i pull out that piece of paper again.

right away i think to myself 

have some hope aub, try to call a friend!

so i think of a few people

that i could maybe ask to take me,

but everyone i thought of

i thought i should just leave them be..

quickly something came to me

"i think best cousin scooter has classes on tuesday nights!"

so i shoot him a text from my phone

and sure enough i was right.

he was more than willing

to come pick me up

'cause that's what best cousins do

when you're other best cousin is in a rut!

so i get ready to leave

and i pull out that piece of paper once more.

hope is what i needed today

to pick me up off the floor.

so whether you carry it around

on a small piece of paper or not,

take something positive with you everyday

i'm just sayin', it helped me out a lot!

{ PS i won an elf hat in my psychology class! ha!}