confession

I don't really want to get too much into the details (maybe another time...), but in these next few weeks I will be leaving my daycare job, buying a car, starting a nanny job, and moving out of my parents house. And I'm hoping that the weather continues to cool down, I can spend more time with my photography, and have a little bit more time to just slow down. I've realized something about myself. I like change.

I really like change.

Of course I want and will always have some consistencies in my life, like friends and family. But I really do like change. I'm excited to have a change from working with 10 kids everyday, to being able to focus on 2 kids. I'm excited to have MY OWN car, paid for all by myself, that I don't have to share with anyone or ask if it's okay if I take it in case anyone else needed it. That will be a change! I'm excited to move out of my parents house (no offense mom and dad, love you!) and be a little bit more on my own. Redecorate my room. Have a little more sense of independence. I'm excited to spend more time with my photography (PLEASE don't hesitate to ask me to take your pictures!) and learn more and get more into it. I'm excited to change my routine. Granted, these all might be good changes by default... but they are changes nonetheless.

But it doesn't stop there. I love the changes in the little things too.

I love that I live somewhere that I get to experience all 4 seasons. Sure, I can say that the perfect weather would be 72 and sunny...but would I really want that all the time? Even the majority of the time? I don't think so. I love the different styles that come with the seasons. From a T-shirt and shorts in the Summer to cuddling up in sweaters and scarves in the Fall and Winter. Oh and different activities that come with each season! You can't really go sledding in the summer, or swimming in the Winter. And here in Utah, you get a little bit of everything. Of course it might snow one day and the next day be 80 degrees (which people here still freak out over... come on guys, it happens every year!) but it keeps us on our toes doesn't it!

I love a change of scene. I loved graduating high school for example. New place, new faces, new friends. I love the influence of new people. The people that I meet who give me more perspectives and open my eyes to new and different things in life. I love discovering new things. But don't think that means I just want to rotate out my friends every once in a while. No of course not. I love the change of developing friendships with current friends as well! Becoming better friends and closer. I love catching up with friends. It is one of my favorite things. Because I know that even if one of my friends hasn't talked to me in a while that doesn't mean they don't care. Everyone's life just keeps getting busier and busier. But when we make time to catch up, it means a lot to me! And I know my friends care. And I love to hear about the change in my friends lives as well.

I love changing music. New music that comes out, new artists, new genres. So refreshing.

Seriously... I just love change all around!

Yes, there can be some not great changes... like losing loved ones, or maybe starting something scary... but there is a quote out there, and I believe I first heard it at a friends funeral, and it is "Feel the fear, and do it anyway." That is a very simple way to explain how you should live your life. Things are scary, and change can be scary, and you will feel the fear... but the only thing stopping you will be you. Do it anyways. You will grow so much each time you do something you are afraid of. I've almost started to like the feeling of fear... that sounds weird, haha, but it just gives me a sense of adventure I guess. Each time I do something I am afraid of, I feel so proud of myself and I want to do something more.

So here are to the changes in life.